7/?/2010

I love that I have no idea what the date is today. I know it is somewhere in the 20's since my mother's official birthday was Monday. So much to do and nothing to do lately. I realize I am back in my classroom setting up on August 20th. Crazy there are 4 weeks of summer left for me. My biggest goal was to read a book just for fun. I can read about 4 or 5 pages and then zzzzzzzzzzz. I am eating Eat.Pray.Love. I know its cheesy, fluffy, about to be a movie but it works for me at the moment. Gotta love a 30something in crisis! I can relate. I had big expectations for the summer. Lots of field trips planned but I quickly realized how important it was for us to stay home. Little art projects, trips to the beach, smore's on the fire pit, soaking up the quality time. I am loving it. The kids are in heaven. No schedule, just chill time. They do, of course, drive me nuts. Jude is 2 and 1/2 and living it up. I just need a recording of myself saying "Jude is that a good choice?' "Jude is that helpful or hurtful?' "Jude do you need a timeout." and then the heated version "Jude leave the dog alone!" "Stop doing that now!" "Go sit on the steps, you are in a timeout!" I managed to regroup after hitting rock bottom yesterday. I have to remember a pile of play-doh makes this little guy happy or mud pies or my favorite game 'car show.' Which is us essentially lining all his matchbox up for a show. Its a good time. Then there is my sweet Elizabeth. Hand on one hip, leg out, eyes rolling, "Mom, please you know all I want to do is play video games!" It would be easy to plug her in and say "see ya in 2 hours!" I make her earn it, weekends only. We have no media days where the tv, computer, and video games are off limits. I stay strong. I curl up with my book and hope she follows suit. She does sometimes. Mostly she mopes and asks for something to eat. First children are incapable of entertaining themselves. Its my own fault. So as laundry piles up, dust bunnies are making colonies under my furniture, half chewed dog toys are strewn across the house, I am going to put my bathing suit on, read my book, listen to MY music, and maybe take a dip in the intex pool. Its summer, all else can wait! Oh and I am sneaking in one night away before summer is over....alone with no children, no husband, no phone, no computer. It is long overdue!